Posts Tagged ‘Dream’

There comes a point in your life that you’ll realize the best thing to do is wait and trust that in the end what your heart’s desire will come to pass. I have not been in a writing mode for sometime but as I’ve realize there are still people who visited my blog and some stumbled upon it by accident and one way or another they stay and read some of my entry. Yes we are all guilty sometimes of yearning so much for love and affection for the opposite sex that some people forgot to cherish it as a gift not to be chased but must be welcome with open arms. And since we just can’t set back and wait for it we tend to move fast thinking when somebody good or even not so good comes along we’re off to never neverland and dreaming of a happy ever after and life as a bed of roses. But this illusion doesn’t last so long coz’ then reality sets in and we now try to find many faults with our partner. I wonder if we could ever accept a person for everything that he is flaws and all and not be too judgemental if suddenly the prince you think is too good for you turnout to be a frog. If we were given choices of course we’ll always choose the prince over the frog. However, when we love someone deeply we must be able to love first the frog before the prince only then can we love with our hearts not our sights. Indeed really loving someone is a very confusing emotion coz’ who knows it might just be a love for sight and not love by feelings. So many times we confused love with physical attraction and chemistry hence most people experience heartbreak and disillusionment. I myself is still struggling with separating these feelings of confusing love coz at times I tend to feel love with different people at the same time. I love him for this, I love him for that, OH how I wish he has this trait that the other one has then it would be perfect. See it’s hard even to love somebody with all your heart without comparing him to past love or other people one feels a bit of affection. Even at this point in my life when I’m past the stage of young love and I’m into adult love I still felt confused coz’ I did love somebody before more than the other men in my life yet there are things about him that I feel hypocritical yet my feelings run deep that I did many crazy things. I did not love him by sight but I love him with a deep feelings that reaches the very core of my being yet sometimes I fail to give all the love that I should have given knowing the depths of what I feel. I guess when all is said and done I’m just human also blinded by the quest of that elusive perfect love which come to think of it really doesn’t exist. (10-31-11 @ 11:30pm)

I guess I love you but why should I guess and not know. Isn’t loving not a guessing game but rather feeling it and knowing things is in the right perspective. Right now I’m so confuse what I feel for you. I do miss you I really admit that. Sometimes I feel that I already love you but at times the feeling subsides. If one loves a person isn’t it consistent, isn’t it grand with no longings, no hurt feeling but just pure bliss. The things you’ve made me feel is a mixed signal, at times I feel like soaring and flying high but most of the time I feel like an angel with only one wing. Ready to fall down from the heaven I have been living, from the dreams I have been making and the wishes I have been longing. Sometimes when I’m all alone I keep thinking of the time when we can be together again and make all our dreams a reality. To quench all the longing inside of me, the loneliness without you here with me and just the emptiness of life far from you. But my greatest wish is that somehow life would be kind and we can have all of it and so much more.