Now i find myself standing still left with only myself to embrace. I sometimes ask myself what happen when did I become so jaded, so sad, so lonely, so alone and so disillusioned. For someone who continuously love the idea of having someone to always be there, to talk, to laugh, to share precious moment and to feel loved now I stayed away from it all. Maybe I feel that my heart can’t take it anymore can’t take the pain of losing someone over and over again and hoping that this time around something will change, something different from what I used to have but then I find myself living the same scenario despite everything that I try to do. So here I am in hiatus mode too tired to care, too shattered to pick up the broken pieces and too hurt to give a damned. Yes I love and love till I can love no more but I know somewhere somehow it is there the love I’m waiting for but for now I must hold myself alone because this heart of mine is crying out loud that it must rest for awhile till the pain will heal and it’s ready to love again. For now I must stand still and be brave to face whatever life brings and if one day love will come my way again I’ll open my arms wide and embrace it with all that I am.