Archive for May, 2008

Forgiveness is sometimes hard to give especially if you’ve been hurt so deep by the person you love. The one whom you think your world revolves around that you envision yourself to spend a lifetime together. Then, out of nowhere they suddenly disappear leaving you behind with a lot of questions and a hurt so deep. Yes indeed it is time that heals the wound and make you move on to forget the memories, the pain of the betrayal and maybe look up to a new future. The future that could possibly bring a new love, a new hope, a new beginning but what if suddenly the person who cause you all those hurt suddenly reappears.

It is a dilemma especially if you are starting to pick up the pieces in your life and the wounds started healing. You thought you have forgotten him and have moved on but why do just a mere hello turn your inside to jitters. Suddenly you are back at where you are before that you can’t quite understand why you’re feeling happy, when you should have been angry in the first place, then to feel suddenly as if nothing happens. The hurt and pain you’ve felt just evaporated in thin air. You hold on to your pride, to your anger, to your betrayal, to your hurt but only to hold unto it in vain. Because loving breaks barriers, heals all your pain and makes you hope again that maybe this time around love will come to stay. Since in reality we can’t resist the temptation to open our heart again to the one we love.

PS. written May 30, 2008 for md

I don’t know if I can trust you again I was hurt when you left me so suddenly. Many questions filled my mind only you could have the answer but then again where would I find you when you are so far from my reach. The funny thing about life is that just when I least expected it you came back. I don’t know if I would be happy that you’re back and embrace you with open arms or be hesitant that you might again hurt me this time around. I’ve been in this path before not with you but with the other guy. I was happy when he came back but it turn out it was a short lived happiness and now I’m confused what to do with you. Should I give you a chance and let you in my heart again or should I just shut the door and never let you in. It is so confusing but I’m happy to hear from you again. I hope I will find the courage to trust you and welcome you back into my arms.